'Rapid heartbeat pounding through my chest, agitated body in distress'

Okay, so that's a Dream Theater lyric and not a Metallica one, but it fits this post so well.

Today I experienced one of the worst panic attacks of my life. My heart was racing so fast and I was so full of adrenaline that I felt like I needed to run at top speed.

I'm feeling a little better now, but that was scary. Hopefully a good night's sleep will calm me down, and prepare me for the weigh in tomorrow morning.

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To Live Is To Diet...

On the 8th of November, 2025, Melbourne's Marvel Stadium will play host to Metallica as part of their '72 Seasons' world tour - their first tour 'down under' in 15 years! As a big fan of the band, I have secured my ticket and I am eagerly awaiting the show. However, as keen as I am to see them live again, I have decided to use the upcoming concert as motivation to change my life. I am nearing 44 years of age (176 seasons!) and at 130.8 kg (288 pounds) I am currently considered 'obese' with a BMI of 35.1. Over the years I have tried many times to lose weight, with varying levels of success. Unfortunately, I have always had trouble with the process, as I constantly lack motivation. This time around, I am putting something big on the line to help me stay motivated. My friend is in possession of the tickets, and I have instructed him that he is not to give me my ticket unless I manage to lose 30.8 kg (68 pounds) before the concert. This gives me approximately ...

Day 1

I'm officially calling today the very first day of my journey. Monday always seems to be a good day to use as a launch pad for something new - even though I traditionally suffer from a regular 'case of the Mondays' and feel fucking miserable. And today is no exception. But, despite my desire to call in sick and binge on bad food all day, I'm heading to work soon. Working as a cleaner, I have the advantage of keeping pretty active all day so I can usually reach the coveted '10,000' steps and burn enough calories, but starting today I am going to add a walk into my routine after work. Ultimately, I would like to add something a little more high impact, but baby steps. With my back acting up the way it is, I don't want to push it too much and cause any damage. So, here goes nothing - send me some positive vibes, I need them! Rock on! 176Seasons

Weigh in #10

In my last post, I lamented that the week just passed would not be successful. Well, I suppose the old 'don't count your chickens' adage has proven right, as this was my most successful week in a while! How I did it, I don't know. I had three days of lost calorie tracking just because a bad mood, so I was expecting a gain - especially after feeling so fatigued lately. However, I did have one work day that was particularly busy, and ended up getting over 20,000 steps! Anyway, here we are! So, for my birthday celebrations, I need to lose... 0.3 kg for 1 cheat meal, and a total of 10 kg loss. 1.1 kg for 3 cheat meals, and my reached goal of 120 kg 1.2 kg for 3 cheat meals and a home-made raspberry and white chocolate cheesecake! Sure, I'd have to make it myself, but it will be worth it. My energy seems restored this week, so I'll be working hard and thinking of the cheesecake and watching a live show !

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